I missed a few days.... It's difficult to upload something on the internet when you don't have internet access all weekend. In many ways, that was a good thing. I considered going back and posting day 17-19 in one jumbled mess, but I think it's best just to move on.... to what if.
It's easy to drive yourself crazy with what ifs, and I speak from experience. But honestly, while there are trials and tribulations I'd rather not have to deal with, I'm pretty good with things. Anything different in how I've lived would not have given me my 2 great kids. And they are pretty terrific.